I spoke with Carla again today. (We’ve been speaking frequently as of late.) I’ve had a lot on my plate and needed a fresh, unbiased outlook from someone who was not only not emotionally involved or invested, such as a friend would be, but someone who could see things most of us can’t – someone with the talent and gift Carla has for being able to “tune into” the spiritual aspect of people and situations.
With that said, we had a good, long conversation about a situation that happened to me last night with a guy I’m involved with. He’s currently deployed in Afghanistan and had been away doing some work. I was unaware and let my insecurities and anxiety get the best of me – I sent him far too many emails wondering where he was, and what was going on …worrying about his safety. We had left off on a rocky note last time I spoke to him, so I wasn’t sure if he was just not speaking to me, or simply out working. It had never occurred to me he might be on an extensive mission.
Needless to say, he returned last night and was non-too-pleased that I had been so overzealous reaching out to him, and he decided to cut ties with me. At first, although I was relieved he was safe and grateful that he at least replied to me, I was still angry that he decided to cut ties with me and the manner in which he chose to do so, via email.
But after re-reading his email a few times, I understood his need to “cut ties” because of where he is, and what he does for a living. He’s not really in a position to worry about me worrying about him. In my mind, it was a dead “done” deal because he had said it was so. I responded letting him know why I did what I did, and that I was angered by his reasons and method, and left it at that.
I spoke to Carla this morning about it, and we set up an appointment for a reading right away, I was beyond grateful that she took time out of her personal time and space to speak with me so quickly. I had initially intended to ask her why I kept attracting such selfish people and what my role was and how I could break that cycle. I wasn’t interested in what was going on with my guy, or if he was returning because I had already written that possibility off.
Carla had something different in mind, though. She went right into what he was thinking and feeling and how my actions had prompted him to do what he did. I hadn’t even considered that I was at fault. I saw him as ungrateful and selfish in my mind – all I was doing was reaching out and letting him know I was worried and I cared.
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