Today’s session was my third session with Carla. At the moment, I find myself at a crossroad, not knowing which path to take, so I was compelled to call Carla for some much needed spiritual guidance. A lot has happened since my first reading with her. I found out I was pregnant this past February (unplanned), which was life-changing, to say the least. At the time, I was 40 years old and had had weight loss surgery 9 years prior.
About 6 months before becoming pregnant, Carla told me that I was not meant to have children this lifetime, and that if I did get pregnant, I would miscarry.
Well, needless to say, I was nervous during the 1st trimester, with Carla’s prediction lingering in the back of my mind, in addition to worrying if the baby was getting enough nutrients from me because I was a bariatric patient. After I cleared the 1st trimester, I started to relax. The months went by, and the baby and I were doing well.
However, about 2 weeks into my 7th month of pregnancy, I noticed that I hadn’t felt my baby girl, Kennedy, move for an entire day and a half. This was unusual, as she was very active. I called my doctor, and she told me to immediately drive to the hospital so an ultrasound could be done to make sure everything was okay. After I was admitted, the doctor on duty came to do the ultrasound. As she was moving the wand around my belly,
I became more and more apprehensive. The doctor finally turned to me and said, “I’m sorry, Kristina, but I don’t see the heart beating.” I was crushed. I began to sob.
So many months of having my baby girl growing inside of me, wondering what she’ll look like, imagining holding and feeding her, thinking about how she will grow into a beautiful young woman and want to hang with her mom, have lunch and then go shopping: all gone, never to come to pass.
And then the realization hit me: Carla told me if I got pregnant, I would lose the baby. The realization shook me to my core.